Makes me an idle person. This is a sad fact that I am coming to realize about myself while here in Greece.
I am having a great time.
I am learning much about my inner self, how I function, what sets me off, patterns I get into, etc.
God willing, I am making a small difference in the clash of the kingdoms currently raging in the world.
I am trying to learn courage, how to beat down my fears and anxieties, and ultimately to trust the Creator God who is always with me and loves me.
But I still feel…idle. Like I should be doing something I’m not. But what?
I am coming to understand the Greek saying, “I am too bored [to do whatever].” My motivation is slipping, as is my discipline. Yuck.
I am also coming to realize just how much time I spend thinking about myself, doing things to make myself better, trying to improve my life. What am I doing for others, what am I doing for the world? What am I doing for the kingdom? What passion am I not pursuing, am I not feeding, am I not nurturing?
And why do I always talk about myself in this blog? It is a place to express my thoughts…but why? Why is it always about me? (Metaphorically folds arms, pouts lips, and sits down with a frustrated attitude.)
God help me.